Tuesday, February 28, 2012

35 weeks

You would think I would be getting used to the number getting higher and higher by now, but it still seems so crazy.

I try not to put on end date on pregnancy so I don't get disappointed by days passing, but reality is I will get to meet this little boy very soon!

It's hard to believe that my "baby" is going to be a big brother. I love that he is in almost every picture I take. I will miss these days when he still considers me his funnest playmate.



The belly is growing, and I do know it will get bigger...


I don't know what face he is making here.

Next week will begin the last month of this pregnancy. It is so amazing to think that God's work inside my womb with this little one is almost complete.

For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
Psalm 139:13-16



-Erin


pleated poppy

even more counting

This weekend was busy spending time as a family. My husband works some weekends, so it was extra nice being able to enjoys his presence with us this entire weekend. My hear overflows with the goodness of seeing the love and admiration the boys have for their Daddy.

146. a husband that is a great Dad
147. a God that is the example of a great Dad
148. time together as a family
149. realizing something I need to change
150. being reminded to take a Sabbath
151. the mix of snow and rain
152. the ever continuing growing belly
153. learning to die to self over the growing belly :)
154. experiencing the love a parent has
155. surprising the boys with a special treat
156. funny memories with friends
157. my youngest almost always wearing sunglasses




158. when finding out a neighbor is moving my son's reaction was, "at least we got to know them before they moved'"
159. my oldest on his own deciding not to play baseball, so I wouldn't have the stress of that and a new baby.
160. baby moving into the correct position readying himself for delivery
161. growing measurements showing the baby is growing
162. trusting God with this family
163. extra cuddles with a boy that needs a little extra mama love
164. knowing that God moves with prayer
165. my youngest knowing the phrase "Bible Time"
166. making room decorations with a friend
167. being more focused on praising God
168. boys making up new car games
169. a church that follows Jesus
170. having food in abundance to feed my family
171. my heating pad
172. having my 5 year old copy everything I say, sometimes cute, sometimes convicting
173. my 2 year old mimicking any funny sound he hears
174. boys that are always talking about how much they love their little brother they haven't met yet
175.  Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23


-Erin

Sunday, February 26, 2012

getting ready for baby

Tomorrow I will be 35 weeks along. This pregnancy has gone by both quick and slow, but as we get closer to the day we get to meet this little guy things seem to be going fast.

We started clearing out a lot of toys that are not really played with anymore and will soon go through all the boys clothes. It seems like such a daunting task, but the end result is always worth it.

Around Christmastime our youngest moved up to a big boy bed, and he and our middle are now sharing a room.

I have amazing friends that will be giving me a baby shower in a couple of weeks. Even though this is baby #4, it is so nice to have a group that wants to celebrate this blessing along with me!

Since we recently moved into our new house, we have no decorated 'nursery' so a overambitious goal is to get the baby's room painted. I have plenty ideas, but I need a little more focused direction.

I think I have decided on these sheets and we will do a mesh bumper. We like to keep things simple, so that helps with me being a little behind in things. *smile*

We are having so much fun dreaming and thinking of how things will change with this new little one.

 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning.  Of His own will He brought us forth by the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of His creatures.
James 1:17-18

I am excited to meet you little man!




-Erin

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

this and that...

and everything in between.

This week has been busy with things we thought would be done a week and a half ago. It caused a little inconvenience, but it is finally done!

Our new appliances are finally in! Everything needed to be adjusted by about half an inch, praise God for a contractor that adjusted everything and gave us a fair price. Way too many tools we didn't have access or know how to were involved. 

We bought stuff to refinish the kitchen cabinets and eventually will redo the counters, but I am so happy even if it stays like this for awhile.

I get to start using the new stuff today and am so excited. Not only is it way prettier, but it will be so much more efficient!

the before to get better effect


and after!


there is a dishwasher too!


and for fun...


love his silliness


I am now 34 weeks along, I can't believe it. I am wearing the outfit from this post I haven't had a chance to do my hair yet, but you don't mind, right??


I am also almost done with accessorising our family room. I put this up yesterday and just need to find what I want to fill the frames.




So this is post is just about everywhere, but that is life for me right now. Ha!

Hope your week is going great!



-Erin


Monday, February 20, 2012

more counting

I had mentioned last week about my selfishness and of course not by surprise as soon as my attitude changed, my day changed. Thank you to those that prayed and encouraged me!

122. an extra day off with my oldest and husband
123. a family Valentines Day



124. new appliances



125. a hard working husband
126. finding something on super sale! seriously it was 85% off
127. a Daddy reading to his son




128. buying groceries
129. singing with my boys
130. boys silly games
131. tools
132. family buying plane tickets to visit when the baby comes
133. a lunch out with Daddy
134. special snacks
135. new haircuts on the boys
136. heat for our house
137. a dinner prepared by my husband
138. the most joyful little boy in the morning
139. boys that start everyday with "Bible Time"
140.a practical yet challenging message at church
141. funny moments that only pregnancy can bring
142. helping friends
143. family learning night at my son's school
144. another week of baby growing inside of me
145. God's constant transforming of my heart!



-Erin



Thursday, February 16, 2012

selfish

Today I am struggling with being selfish. Not in a way that I want superficial things, but in a (to me) worse way.

I am feeling blah for no reason, and I want to wallow in it.

Seeing those words written knowing that's where my heart is, yuck! That is not what God wants from me, that is not where I want to be.

I keep looking to the others to fill me, but the truth is, nothing can fill me but Christ.

Someone can say the most flattering things to me all day, and yes, that would be nice in the moment, but it would just leave me wanting more and questioning and wondering if I am not enough when the compliments stop.

But God's truth is fulfilling in a never ending way!

And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.  Romans 12:2

The generous soul will be made rich,
And he who waters will also be watered himself.  Proverbs 11:25

And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength. This is the first commandment. And the second, like it, is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these.”  Mark 12:30-31


My focus is on me and that is the wrong place for it to be. I am far from perfect, but I have Christ in me and he can do great things,

Not only to change the way I feel, but to give me strength to change my actions and thoughts.

I get to spend a big part of my day with these guys.


unkempt hair and all.



Today despite my selfish wants, I choose to serve. Sometimes it feels like more of a sacrifice than serving, but ultimately, it gets my back to where God wants me to be.

I will be prayerfully be living today to love my neighbor as myself. Because the ones I am around most today are worth far more than my wallowing!


Your mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens;
Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.
Your righteousness is like the great mountains;
Your judgments are a great deep;
O Lord, You preserve man and beast.

Psalm 36:5-6


-Erin

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

33 Weeks

So fun, I get to hear my precious baby's heartbeat and celebrate loving those around me!

About 7 weeks to go and I am for sure feeling everything inside of me getting really cramped. It always amazes me that once you think you can't get any bigger... you do!

We had a fun Valentine's Day at home. My boys requested a heart shaped pizza, I was made aware by my 7 year old that it is our tradition. I had bigger plans on making things fancier, but my tiredness got the best of me.

I am so glad I have boys that don't even notice the difference!

Get ready for picture overload...


Star Wars and candy perfect treat for my boys!


my decorating attempt



lovely flowers that smell so good from my amazing husband
(and a sweet little boy in a cape)





wedges and not flats!


fun earrings gifted from a Valentine swap


my gift to my husband to share actual words with him about how grateful I am to have him



I had lots of help making this pizza


our dessert


There are so many things I would have liked to have been able to do, but I am so thankful for what was done.

I am so blessed to have so many 'boys' in this house to love on and be loved by! I am just savoring these times when the boys are young and a heart shaped pizza makes their day. :)



-Erin





Monday, February 13, 2012

A Valentine!

There are have been so many fun things that people have on their blogs all the time, but I never had the chance to participate since I didn't have a blog.

Well I got my chance, and this was so fun!

Alissa from RAGS to stitches and Caroline from Good Times Never Seem So Good arranged The Valentine Swap. A swap between bloggers to get a fun snail mail surprise.

I was matched up with Marybeth from Let it Grow just about the sweetest, cutest, expectant mommy to be of her 3rd boy, all under 3! She is simply amazing and will do great with this new little one due very soon!

We filled out a questionnaire to sign up, to give an idea of what to gift the other person with. I was so excited to get a package full of little goodies and be able to send one out as well!

I received my package last week and was so blessed by the fun stuff Marybeth picked for me!



gotta love a cheesy smile

even my son had fun with this!

the loot!

This was so fun and I made a new friend! Thank you again Marybeth for all the fun stuff!!

Happy Valentine's Day!


-Erin


Photobucket

counting

3 gifts found outside
"Christmas" tree in our backyard
seeing my son talk with a friend on the bus
the birds that fly from our deck to our tree

3 gifts red
a shirt that fits
the wrapping of a Valentine package
the car on my sons stained shirt that he just adores

a gift broken
my boys well loved Bible


a gift fixed
things put back where they can be used


a gift thrifted
a tie for my husband

3 gifts that were surprises
a new dishwasher
an extra good night hug from my son
a friend opening up
3 times you heard laughter today
my boys playing together
my husband being funny
my son singing his "hahaha" song

3 gifts found in working
a job completed
a clean house
a closer relationship

3 hard eucharisteos
plans that went awry today
praying for family that doesn't know the Lord
seeing people go through hard times

May you be blessed this week!

-Erin


Friday, February 10, 2012

Insta Friday

I have seen many others do this and thought I would join the fun!


My son got new socks this week, took my phone, and posted this picture so everyone could see!



Enjoying the non-rainy weather and playing outside.


Waiting for Dad to go on a lunch date.


This melts my heart and brings happy tears to my eyes. My 3 boys feeling their little brother kick!

Hope your week was full of blessings!




-Erin

life rearranged

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

32 weeks

I am down to just a few items that fit, and with only a couple of months left I really don't want to waste spend money on clothes that wont fit after baby.

Oddly enough I got a little outfit inspiration from none other than... Randy Jackson! Umm yeah, I know that sounds so crazy, but my husband and I were watching the Portland audition of American Idol, since that is in our area, and he was wearing a shirt similar to one I had stopped wearing before I got pregnant, because it was too big.

The lighting is horrible, but I need the memory of my pregnancy craziness






This outfit was only insprired by what I had that fits, ha!







I seriously think I am losing my mind a little more every week. I am sure my kids are loving it though!


-Erin

Sunday, February 5, 2012

still counting

76. having the luxury of food aversions
77. girly nails


78. unthinkable prayer answered in the same day
79. being met where I am
80. having a washer and dryer in my home
81. hot showers
82. 7 year old jokes
83. a routine appointment with no issues
84. my husband's job
85. having energy and ability to clean
86. my husband's leadership in tough decisions
87. fresh produce
88.fever reducer for my 2 year old
89. extra cuddles through a fever
90. a sign language "I love you" from my 5 year old
91. beautiful sunny days
92. a weekend with 2 walks to the park
93. little boys wrestling
94. redemption Sunday for my 2nd grader
95. my son maturing right before my eyes
96. my stomach that keeps moving from side to side
97. a fun treat with my family
98. living for someone higher than me
99. a weekend spent with my loves
100. these boys



-Erin



Friday, February 3, 2012

my heart

This past week has been kind of a big one for me. Nothing earth shattering that others may immediately notice, but I know and feel better than I have in a long time.

Earlier in the week a I saw a picture of an African boy about 7 or 8 very malnutrition, holding what I am assuming his also very malnutrition maybe 2 year old brother. I have seen images like this before, but this time it really struck me, and I was instantly brought to tears.

The caption under it said

Then Jesus, looking at him, loved him, and said to him, “One thing you lack: Go your way, sell whatever you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, take up the cross, and follow Me.” Mark 10:21

This brought to light so many things like, truly and deeply praying for and about how I can help the least of these, how I can serve my family especially my kids so they can go out and serve others, how routine my walk has felt lately, and how self centered I am, just to name a few.

I prayed so honestly and openly really sharing my weaknesses and crying out to God. I am always blown away at how God can lift our burdens so easily sometimes. That night I went to the weekly youth group meeting ready to pour into those kids with a rejuvenated faith and added excited to serve and share.

During worship at the end of the night I felt the presence of the Lord in a way that was so real and has been lacking lately.

We are all called to different missions and have different ways we are called to further the Kingdom of God.

But now indeed there are many members, yet one body.  And the eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you”; nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” No, much rather, those members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary.  And those members of the body which we think to be less honorable, on these we bestow greater honor; and our unpresentable parts have greater modesty,   but our presentable parts have no need. But God composed the body, having given greater honor to that part which lacks it,  that there should be no schism in the body, but that the members should have the same care for one another. And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; or if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it.  1 Corinthians 12:20-26

So this was totally opening up for me and sharing where I so often fall short. Please pray along with me as I continue to seek the Lord for direction on where and how to serve. I don't want this life to be spent on my own selfish desires, but being able to show and share about a love that is greater and stronger than mine.


-Erin