Thursday, March 29, 2012

we are home

We actually have been home since Tuesday. My hospital stay was very short (by choice) and everything went well enough to get home quickly. We don't have extended family in the area, so I was wanting to be with my family and not just me and baby in the hospital.

Delivery went smooth and we are just loving our new little boy! The boys are just amazed by him, and my husband and I are amazed by them all!

It is the best being surrounded by all 4 of my boys!


Monday, March 26, 2012

the time has come

Today is the day I will meet this baby that has been growing inside of me for the past nine months! It is such an emotional thing kissing my boys bye as I leave to go to the hospital, but the next time I see them they will have a new brother to love. 

Any prayers and comments of encouragement are appreciated. :)

Commit your works to the Lord,
And your thoughts will be established. 
Proverbs 16:3

There is a lot of work ahead of me, and this verse brings me so much comfort in knowing that through the tiredness and changes the Lord will be establishing my thoughts!


Saturday, March 24, 2012


And on the seventh day God ended His work which He had done, and He rested on the seventh day from all His work which He had done. Then God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it He rested from all His work which God had created and made. 
Genesis 2:2,3

A few weeks ago at church there was a message on Sabbath. There was way to much good info to get too much into it now, but it was great!

After service my husband and I were able to talk and figure out what Sabbath might look like for our family. Obviously having 3 kids and knowing very very soon we will have a newborn, a day with no work isn't really possible. But we can have a day that we put our day to day work aside, pour into our boys and spend in intentional worship to the Lord.

We have realized that it will take some learning and adjusting to make it as much of a day of rest as possible. 

Here are some pictures of our first attempt Sabbath.

poor guy, the sun was in his eyes and he was trying so hard not to squint

yes this is the shirt mentioned in this post, and also here and yes I still wear it weekly...

Our world will soon become busier, and that makes me even more excited to have a special day set aside to  "rest" Our souls are slowly being re-refreshed, truly a gift from the Lord!


Monday, March 19, 2012

38 weeks

As I see that title I am speechless! To be so close to finally meeting this sweet little boy is overwhelming in so many ways, mostly good!

This pregnancy has been a mix of one of the easiest and hardest ones I have experienced. I found out I was pregnant the day we left for a vacation to go and see family. I wanted to take a pregnancy test because we were going to be going to Disneyland and I wanted to make sure and only go on safe rides if needed. Well much to my shock (and suspicion) it was positive!

My husband and I had decided around the time that our youngest was 6 moths old, that we felt finished having children. Much to our surprise about 3 months later I found out I was pregnant. With a history of miscarriage I called the doctor as soon as I found out so we could check all the levels. Though many blood tests it was confirmed I was pregnant, but things were not flowing as seamless as they should. Within the month signs of miscarriage started to show, and I did indeed have to say bye to that baby for now.

The Lord used that greatly in our life and had changed our hearts to be open to what He had planned, not what we felt comfortable with. We were not going to intentionally "try" but we were going to continue to pray about it and let the Lord do the leading.

It was about a year later when I found out I was pregnant with this little guy and one of the biggest blessings in the beginning was being on vacation. I was 1000 miles away from my doctors care and was able to enjoy knowing life was growing inside of me, without having the stress of blood tests and exams. By the time I had my first appointment I was far enough along to distinguish numbers and see a heartbeat! I know from past experience that a heartbeat now doesn't mean a heartbeat later, but there are very few things in life that are better than seeing that tiny pulsing dot on a screen.

During this time we were also searching for a home to buy. That process was a little more involved and took longer than we had planned, but we knew God had the perfect house for us, and he did! Just in God's way that door wasn't opened until the very last minute. We had 30 days left on our lease and the home we bought came on the market that day. We put in an offer and it was accepted that day!

I was not feeling well from taking progesterone, but still making it though. I was zapped of energy, but somehow we managed to get moved into our new house and out of the one we were renting.

There have been so many emotional ups and downs and sooooo many opportunities for learning! I think I have grown more in my relationship with Jesus and have been tested in different ways. I am not one that easily enjoys the effects of pregnancy, but I do know the gift it is and how precious this time is I get to experience it. I also know how quickly it can be taken away.

These next few weeks are going to be filled with more surrender of myself and more joy than I can imagine. Thankful does not even begin to describe how incredibly grateful I am. There are no words to describe the gratitude I have, but I am trying to live my life in a way that honors and brings God glory.

Through the physical pain of the last few weeks of pregnancy, labor, and recovery, my heart is full! Thank you Lord for letting me experience one more of your greatest miracles!

Here are some pictures of our most recent trip to IKEA to pick up the last things needed for the baby's room.

my view, the young one in the cart, and the 2 older ones ahead with daddy, my heart melts!


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

project overload

So here is a real look at my home in it's for the past month current state. 

We bought our home the last weekend in October. We were so blown away with how the Lord provided a house that really was move-in-ready. It was more than we ever thought we would have and we feel so blessed to have a space to raise this family and invite and welcome others in.

I am not the most creative and crafty person in a traditional way, I can't sew, or write well, and I don't normally come up with really creative ideas for anything, ha! But I do love to make my home a comfortable and welcoming space for my family and others.

Having all boys sometimes limits my outlet, considering none of them want a space that is, "too girly!" Fortunately I like clean lines and simple decorations.

Although our house was move-in-ready we had a different idea of the style of decor we wanted. Not too big of a deal, but I think I forgot to mention I was nearly 5 months pregnant when we moved in, and I am not very good at not getting things started right away. Only problem is as we started projects (not to mention also having to unpack) I became more and more pregnant... I forgot that happens. 

There is so much that we have finished, but these are some of the projects that are in mid process. I am not sure how or if they will get done before the baby comes, but one can dream, right?! 

a painting that I am being brave about by priming over and painting something else



and more doors that need the last few coats of paint.

although these people look nice, they came with the frame

I am going to paint a C in the big frame and need to add a picture in the small one

the 'nursery' is mostly organized, just very plain

gifts from the baby shower do need to be put away

and a box of stuff waiting to go to Goodwill.

Our plan for the baby's room is to paint all the trim and moldings white, paint the walls, and add decoration. Again our goal is to be done before the baby is born, but since I am less than 3 weeks from my due date and also taking care of my 3 boys, ummmmmm yeah.

I love having goals to accomplish, but even more so I love that my worth is not found in finishing these tasks. It sometimes gets a little frustrating being hindered by the size of my belly and lack of energy, but this is such a special an unique time. As much as I will enjoy the projects when they are done, I am much more enjoying this time of anticipation and somewhat forced (from lack of energy) rest time that I am in.

This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it. 
Psalm 118:24


Monday, March 12, 2012

any day now???

Well in theory, I guess it could be any day, but just knowing that I am now 37 weeks and considered full term is so encouraging!

I am so incredibly thankful for amazing ladies that blessed me and baby with a baby shower this past weekend. With this being baby 4, I am humbled and blessed that we are surrounded by people that love and support us though everything! It was a fun night just hanging out with the girls, eating, praying for my family, being beyond spoiled with baby stuff, and ending the night watching the so great but ever so realistic, Father of the Bride Part II. I had a great time and it was perfect refreshment for this tired mama!

I had the perfect shirt to wear for the occasion, but when I put it on... let's just say being 3 weeks away from your due date and a shirt that cinches, not a good combination, AT ALL! So I had to improvise with the few things I have that fit. The outfit fit, but what I was most excited about was wearing jewelery that my husband gave me when we were dating. It was so fun to think about how much life we have been blessed to live together these past 10 years.

201. each and every friend that came to my baby shower
202. a time of prayer over my family
203. wearing earrings and necklace from my husband for my 19th birthday, worn to celebrate our growing family.
204. a Sabbath
205. clothes for my family to keep warm in the cold
206. inspiring and clear message at church
207. clearer perspective
208. a new way to play Jenga
209. a backyard to play in
210. a break in the rain for the boys to play outside
211. a very excited soon to be kindergartner at kindi orientation
212. a two year old "reading"
213. every time my youngest sees a school bus he thinks his older brother is on it, even when they are together.
214. one week closer to meeting this baby
215. an adoption for our pastor's family in Uganda approved
216. the 'picture' of God being our Father
217. being able to sit somewhat comfortably through a church service
218. a relaxing breakfast out
219. more projects completed
220. opportunities to train my children
221. food that nourishes and tastes good
222. bringing out baby clothes that each boy has worn
223. a husband that does so much to help my being able to do less
224. sweet boys that talk to their brother not yet born
225. my 7 year old reading to his 2 year old brother and teaching his 5 year old brother math


Tuesday, March 6, 2012

in the middle

I am a middle child, typical or not, it is kind of funny that I find myself in the middle on a lot of things. Never too extreme on any end of things. This for the most part serves me well. I am able to see both sides of a situation and tend not to have too much drama in my life. I do enjoy things greatly and do feel happy most of the time, but I can also gage other's emotions and adjust my actions and temperament accordingly.

Lately things have been a little different. Life is getting busier and I am getting slower, ha! My attitude has been a little harder to control, the back pain at times seems too much, there is always something that needs to be done.

I have been getting great encouragement from my morning devotions and this morning was no different.

We give no offense in anything, that our ministry may not be blamed. But in all things we commend ourselves as ministers of God: in much patience, in tribulations, in needs, in distresses, in stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labors, in sleeplessness, in fastings; by purity, by knowledge, by longsuffering, by kindness, by the Holy Spirit, by sincere love, by the word of truth, by the power of God, by the armor of righteousness on the right hand and on the left, by honor and dishonor, by evil report and good report; as deceivers, and yet true; as unknown, and yet well known; as dying, and behold we live; as chastened, and yet not killed; as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and yet possessing all things.
2 Corinthians 6:3-10

It is not by my strength that I will get through things. I have a God that takes my burdens and fill me with his spirit to guide me along and comfort me especially when things get hard. 

Now being 9 months pregnant I am a little more emotional than normal, but I am so thankful that even through my unreasonableness, God is there to comfort my heart and bring the truth of his perspective back to me.

the list continues

176. yet another week of baby safe in the womb
177. starting the tradition of Sabbath
178. God's learning curve
179. a last minute date night with my husband
180. a few sunny days
181. forgiveness
182. friendships that point to Jesus
183. a flower for mommy

184. a little more organizing completed
185. one week closer to meeting this little boy
186. my son making friends
187. spending time with friends
188. my boys maturing
189. doing fun projects with a friend
190. making this house a little more of a home
191. opportunities to grow
192. having so much we get to donate
193. seeing my son learn a hard lesson
194. God's call for repentance
195. colors that make me smile
196. there is always joy in the Lord
197. God's protection over us
198. that there is always a way to serve and encourage
199. blessing for obedience
200. learning more about God's faithfulness and truth each day